marluxialovesvexen

why is everything so dark? I feel like i could do a million things but at the same time i'm immobilized by the darkness. Energy pent up in my body while thoughts scream through my active mind. Thoughts of dead people, mass murders, the loss of others. Watching those close to me all go insane while i kill everyone i see that isn't a friend or family member. Its all just a little hallucination i'm having. Like usual. Then it starts to end and my good friend Tyler -who might i mind you is also a hallucination- is sitting on the end of my bed smoking a fag as usual. Taking long drags, and blowing them out slowly smiling at me '' Bonjour Ami'' he

with each cut is a new euphoria, a new day, a new life it seems, but once the thrill dies down, it's just another cut, which in the end brings you down, further into the depths of your own hell, you can't escape your own hell, until you are able to leave the thrills, the euphoria, the new day, the new life that you seem to earn, with one simple cut, just one is all it takes, to lead you down, slowly down your steps, into your own mind where hell resides, just another cut will take you one step lower, and another, and another, lower and lower you get, until the stairs start to break behind you, then you run down the s